I said Yeah, Why Not…

We have news… and the details aren’t too bad either…

On Wednesday evening I was taking a bit of strain with a whole bunch of things needing my attention, and simply not being able to make any difference in my own strength anyway – and G was lucky enough to face the frustrations. I was quite direct and he patiently took my shots fired in a loving silence that only bugged me further.

I have been working through Esther and knew Holy Spirit was going to ask me to fast at some point; I just didnt realise he meant today until Friday lunch. I generally use teaching as an excuse to soften fasting to a Daniel fast, but no, all food was out – only liquids allowed. I approached the day with the attitude of laying down food as a symbolic gesture of my laying down my fears and frustrations regarding the future, especially the financial provision for the wedding… my practical brain was clashing with my more idealistic faith-filled heart. I needed Daddy God to draw me back into alignment with His Story.

For the most part, school was fine. I had way too many grade 8 classes to face, then break duty, then matric invigilation… I literally did not have 5 mins to go pee. Then I get this message from G saying he was at school. Say what?? At break time?? The poor man must have been terrified as I marched him into my classroom (in silence) shocked that he would think visiting me at school was a good idea. I may have been a little harsh. And then he hands me a flask of hot chocolate, a rose and chocolates. Just a little bewildering.

I got home to find more chocolate, another rose, card and the kettle boiling. At that point I started to wonder if something was going on, but when he simply made me tea and didnt say (or ask) anything… well, I was slightly uncertain. We were meeting with the function manager of a venue (story for another blog post!), so went to meet her… chatted, met the pet sheep (who thinks he is a dog) and then strolled around the farm with Jonah, the bull mastiff farm dog. Looking at the donkey shed, I suddenly realised G wasn’t beside me… turning around, I found him with another rose and card. I saw words like Wife and Smile and looked up to find him kneeling in front of me, simply asking me to be his wife.

I really do think I said, “yeah, why not?”

 

 

 

Advertisements

Growing (closer) together

For as long as I can remember, my heart’s desire for my future marriage was to find someone who (after loving Jesus and dancing) would approach life as an Adventure – someone who stepped out in faith with courage and boldness, holding my hand tightly as together, we faced the Unknown, secure in our trust that God provides.  Its how I’ve always lived my life and knew I needed someone who would adventure alongside me…

What I didn’t realise when Holy Spirit drew G and I together was that is exactly what He had in store for me – a man who looked to God first, and who was willing to step out in faith when called to do so. And what’s more: God gave me an Encourager. G has this effortless ability to speak encouragement into any and every situation. Most of the time he doesn’t even realise how incredible his gift is – it comes to him so naturally. I stand amazed on an almost daily occurrence.

We’ve both started new businesses in the past couple of weeks, so we are very much stepping out of our little comfort zones and trusting God to lead us along these paths. [Quick shameless plug: please go LIKE G’s FB page – Selah and check out his online ordering system while you’re there… and yeah, happy stalking??]  On Saturday, I had to do an engagement shoot for a couple and on a whim, I invited G to come along… it was amazing having him with me, helping me climb rocks, holding me in place while I leaned over ledges to get ‘that shot’ – supporting me not only physically, but emotionally too. And I think for the first time I appreciated the extent of what (who) God has blessed me with: when joining our hearts together, Holy Spirit also joined our paths – our personal Adventures – to include one another. Although our businesses are very much our own things to grow and build, the other is always included and shares both the highs and the lows. We do happy dances for each step of faith the other takes (there was whooping when G began his FB page and there is oohing and aahing for every baby romper I sew).  But what’s more: when the one is lagging in faith or has a confidence wobble, the other is there to speak Life and Encouragement – to believe enough for both. We’re in it together. And its drawing us closer together every day; we’re learning not just how compatible we are, but how we have been created to complement eachother and bring out the best in one another – I guess we’re becoming a team.

I honestly do not know how my business is going to grow or what’s around the corner for either of us, but I am fully convinced that this relationship is from God and will be used not only for His purposes, but to His glory.  And I know that He will provide for both of us, every step of the way.  And every step we both take towards God, draws us closer to one another. Together, we have been called to a Life of Faith-filled Adventure and yes, I will admit there are moments when I feel completely overwhelmed at everything that seems to stand against our chances of success… but those moments fade in comparison to the awe I stand in when reminded of God’s greatness and faithfulness.  If he can create and co-ordinate our Love Story right in front of us (without us even noticing), I know He will continue to write it with as much Joy.

FullSizeRender (8)