Introducing G…

When we first began dating (and soon after, this blog), several people questioned me on all the secrecy.  Some even went as far as telling me we would be building our relationship on a foundation of deception… I did what I know to do best: take it to Jesus.  I asked him what he thought and Holy Spirit gave me the response; ‘Moses’. Um, okay… and it was with a bit more prayer and pondering that he explained how Moses began his life hidden in the bulrushes, kept a secret – for a season. At the right time, he was revealed and used for God’s purposes.  I felt Holy Spirit say, that that would be a significant image for our relationship, initially. That although God had called me to speak openly about our Love Story, some of the details of ‘Us’ would need to remain hidden – not because there was anything to be ashamed of or ungodly, but simply to obey God’s word and instruction over our lives.

I always felt we would ‘step out’ more publicly when we got engaged, but its only been in the past week where I have had a sense that the season of hiding in the bulrushes is over. The initial reason for our ‘secrecy’ was to honour G’s dance studio – its frowned upon (but not legally restricted) for instructors to have relationships with students.  We didn’t want the studio to be brought into disrepute and chose to remain as professional as possible at the studio – something I believe we achieved when even our closest friends who we dance with twice a week were amazed to find out we were engaged… and to further honour the studio, I no longer dance with G; I have a new instructor.

But as we begin planning our future together and seeking God’s calling upon our relationship, I have felt prompted to step fully into the witness that God has entrusted me with… and felt its time to introduce you to my fiance, Garth.

We are complete opposites – in almost every way – and yet, together, we bring out the best in eachother.  It never ceases to amaze me at just how different we are; from choice of movies and food and music and pretty much anything… we will choose the opposite. But we complement eachother. Well. Where I am an introvert who needs to overthink every detail before communicating my thoughts, Garth is the extrovert who processes ideas verbally… and eventually comes to a conclusion. We’re both ‘creatives’, but I have a more disciplined approach to strategies and developing systems – which he is better at actually implementing.  Although we’re both dreamers, I am usually the little fire-cracker initiating the plans, but once he gets started, Garth usually sees them through (because I’ve moved on to the next visionary plan). I tend to be more impulsive – when I hear God’s voice, I often jump into obedience a little too quickly, where Garth has the wisdom to take a moment, process the details and then walk fully in the plan.  I live for finding a greater purpose in everything; while Garth lives to love and take care of those he loves – I tell him constantly that his ability to love is a superpower that I cannot begin to fathom…

The complementary nature of ‘Us’ means we make a really effective team, allowing the other to lead in areas where they’re naturally stronger. We’ve both begun businesses –  that although they’re technically each of our own – will only succeed if we work as a team on both of them. I’m extending the Hello Love ‘ministry’ to events; creating Date Night opportunities for couples to have a fun evening out, learning to dance and having dinner together, as well as (something very close to my heart), an evening for Singles to meet other singles in the city – I know how hard it was being in my late twenties and early thirties, watching my friends get married and have kids… and somehow be unable to meet anyone because my usual church social circle was well, limited and it seemed impossible to step out of my weekly social cycle. There are so many lonely Christian single people desperately desiring marriage, and if I can provide an opportunity for them to meet people with the same values… well, the idea makes me very happy. [Please like and follow my FB page – and invite people to do the same!?] And being that the events are mostly centred around dance… well, it helps that Garth has some expertise in that area…

Garth is stepping out in faith with his massage and natural products company, SELAH. The name means ‘stop, pause and reflect’ and is often found in the Psalms. In so many ways, this concept has begun to define how we approach our lives – the TV has been turned off and disconnected; we pause often to reflect and connect. And he has made me a borderline-hippie fan of essential oils! I love them.  I love the combination of aromas and the natural benefits they provide. As part of SELAH, we have launched natural bath products (lotions and scrubs… and are in the process of learning to make soap).  You can follow his progress on Facebook too…

Getting to create, together, has brought us so much joy in sharing the Adventures God is leading us on.

And because you’re probably tired of seeing his face in part or knowing his shadow more than is normal… here we are…

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Esther Season

Shortly before we got engaged, Holy Spirit told me to approach the upcoming season as a ‘Esther Season’ – Christian talk for a season of intentional preparation. Immediately my girl mind went to the details of her beauty treatments in the lead up to her meeting the king. Boy, how wrong I was…

In reading the book, I was actually a little surprised to see how the whole year of beauty treatments and special diet is summed up in one verse. One. I began to think Holy Spirit had something else in mind. The book of Esther is probably most well known for a verse in chapter 4, “…who knows but that you have been given this royal position for such a time as this?” And yet, it is merely a question that forms a vital catalyst for everything that happens next. Being positioned royally does not seem nearly as glamorous as fairytales and instagram like to portray – you only need to spend 5 minutes on social media to see how the world has a new obsession of everything “Queen”; its as if being a Queen means deserving extra-ordinary respect and a life of luxury. Um, if Queen Esther is anything to go by, the world has gotten it just a little wrong… yes, I am sure she had a fairly comfortable life, but when she (and the jewish people) were threatened with a death sentence, she couldn’t stamp her foot and demand things be changed. She had to approach the king. And if he didn’t want to see her: she would die. Not exactly glamorous.

But as Queen, she had a responsibility to stand up for those around her. Even if it meant facing a very real danger. Reading how she faced the threats before her, made me realise that she models something worth learning for marriage: before she took on the threat of the enemy, Haman, she fasted for three days – she took her problem to God. Secure in His peace and grace, she found courage to approach the king. Here’s where she really gives us girls some great pointers: she put on her royal robes. She didn’t just dress pretty; she put on the outfit that not only spoke of her royal position as Queen, but also reminded the king that she was his wife and subtly reminded him of the responsibility he carried as her husband. Sparing her life and welcoming her into his presence, he asked her what she wanted. Again, this girl was good: she didn’t ask for anything except to spend time with him – she sought his heart and not his hand. She did this three times. Each time, drawing him closer to her, deepening their relationship through intimacy. And in the midst of this intimacy, when the enemy came in close, she simply identified the threat and her husband stepped up to protect her. She didn’t point fingers, nag or complain; she simply directed his eyes to an enemy and he did the rest.

That was the first lesson I learnt.

The next was a bit more hardcore. Being a Queen like Esther is not all beauty and banquets. After the king steps up to save her (from a death warrant he had initially signed), he again asks her what he can do for her. She doesn’t hold back and promptly starts a war against the enemy. She didn’t just defend her people or fight for justice; she opened the way for their victory. Being positioned ‘royally’ was never for her – God had a purpose to use her for the benefit of those around her. To be a Queen in God’s Kingdom means not only wearing a crown of Grace, but also carrying a sword – and not being afraid of the battles that loom.

To be honest, I still don’t know how this relates to me directly, but I know that the next 72 days will be spent focussing more on the positioning for marriage, than all the beauty and glitz of the wedding.

When Holy Spirit plans a wedding…

Shortly before we got engaged (as in the Saturday before…), I was sitting with Holy Spirit and felt challenged about the wedding details.  Yes, I am going to get very personal and real here for a moment: I am one of ‘those girls’ who has a secret wedding board on Pinterest. There. Confession made. It’s out in the open. Label me if you like, even dare to judge me, but let’s be honest – I am not alone. That morning, I felt Holy Spirit say we need to review all the images I had pinned and He began to question my choices – what was significant about each image.  Slowly but surely I started deleting pins, admitting how much significance I had placed on trendy concepts. Eventually I paused and simply asked Holy Spirit how He would style a wedding; I felt Him smile and pull in closer…

He showed me all the images I had kept of the flowers/ decor and kept using the word ‘Garden’.  I asked for a Scripture about a garden (no, my mind did not even think about the Garden of Eden) and He reminded me of a verse in Song of Solomons 4, where the Lover describes the Beloved as a ‘enclosed garden, a sealed fountain’ and then proceeds to describe several fruit and spices found in its midst.  This isn’t the first time Holy Spirit has led me to this scripture and He used the phrase ‘garden of intimacy (with Jesus)’ – that a Kingdom-marriage can only be built on the foundation of one’s First Love in Jesus; that we need to walk daily in that refreshing presence and intimacy with Him first… giving us strength and capacity to love our spouse. I knew instantly that this would form the foundation for our wedding… I just didn’t know how. Yet.

Cue Sylvia; my wedding floral decor creative genius (and amazing friend who has walked a path not only similar to mine, but has encouraged me and inspired me for a good 15+ years).  I had already felt I needed to ask her to create my bouquet prophetically, allowing Holy Spirit to guide her, so when Holy Spirit extended the idea to approach the whole wedding design from the prophetic, I was all in.  And so was she. I simply shared my heart (Pinterest Board), scripture and several key symbols Holy Spirit had said to include (totally another blog post all in itself), and left the decor aspects of the wedding in their (more than capable) hands. How very unlike me to give over creative control for a day I have spent years play-planning. I cannot begin to explain the freedom and joy it has given me – I know my wedding will be beautiful, but I don’t need to worry about a single flower colour or availability as I lift my eyes beyond the wedding to Forever with my (future) husband.  I get to become Marriage Minded, while Enjoying the Engagement.

I took Sylvia to visit the venue yesterday and we spent the afternoon/ evening sharing our Heart Journeys and allowing creative ideas to flow.  She had had a Holy Spirit revelation about a ‘Covenant Carpet’ – a literal mat upon which you pledge your vows that is custom created to tell your Love Story.  This then becomes a daily reminder of that day when we stood before God and friends and promised to give the best (and worst) of ourselves to eachother. I loved it. We spoke through various elements and symbols and colours that Holy Spirit has instructed to include in the wedding, while also including special details that tell our unique Love Story.  This morning we played.  And by that I mean, I moved furniture about and watched Sylvia do her thing: create floral magic. And then it was my turn to take the photo and play a little too…

Nope, I am not going to share the final product (yet). G gets the first preview… but I am so excited to stand upon our Love Story – in the Garden of Intimacy with Jesus – filled with Promises and Hope for our Forever Future.

And this is just the beginning of the wedding planning – I can’t wait to see what Holy Spirit has planned.

Breaking Ground

‘Sow for yourselves righteousness, reap the fruit of unfailing love; and break up your unplowed ground, for it is time to seek the Lord.’ – Hosea 10:12

We started our marriage preparation course on Saturday. I had anticipated it being quite hectic (G was as usual, totally calm), but I honestly was not prepared for the revelation of its significance. Yes, we were given anologies of ‘when you want to drive a car, you first go for lessons… and when you want to operate in surgery, you get trained… why should marriage be different?’ I agree completely: being the nerd that I am, (if I can help it), I only step into things after I have prepared for them (being called to live by faith doesnt always allow for that, but in this case, thankfully God has given us a season to prepare).

This morning I sat with Holy Spirit (yay for school holidays) and ‘randomly’ found this scripture in Hosea. Wow. It really spoke so clearly to me regarding this Season of Preparation. Like a farmer prepares the land in the season before wanting to sow seed and hope for a subsequent harvest, so too do we need to prepare ourselves for marriage – and seed can only be sown into ground ready to receive. This morning I realised how much ‘land’ in my heart, mind and life has been allowed to grow wild – untendered and well, possibly just a little feral. Without having anyone to really consider (or keep me in check), I have allowed unhelpful habits and ways of thinking and doing things to creep in like weeds. That ground is definitely not suitable for sowing any kind of seed, let alone hoping to reap a good harvest! And so, the season of breaking ground has begun.

And it is uncomfortable.

Saturday’s session was Communication. An important foundation, but not totally ‘sensitive issue’ stuff, right? Oh, so wrong… my little field was filled with roots and rocks that need removing. The revelation that life is no longer about me or simply doing things as I have always (unquestioningly) done hit home; if I am going to be the best wife for G – the one he needs me to be in order to help him lead us well, and to encourage the best out of him… well, I have some work to do. Yes, the significance of this season lies in the Forever Future ahead of us, but more so, the next 87 days will require me to be more vulnerable, open and humble than I have ever been. And it requires an incredible depth of trust; revealing both the good and bad parts of myself to G, (hoping and praying) and trusting that he will not only accept them and extend grace towards me, but will cover those areas in love (Colossians 3). I am continually in awe and so very grateful that God would give me someone who is not only the most patient man I have ever known, but so kind and gentle in how he draws me out from my fears, insecurities and overthinking head. He leads me well.

So excuse me while I go hunt for some wellies and dungarees and a garden fork… or maybe a tractor and plow may be more useful… there is work to be done – and it doesnt involve colour schemes, flower choices or picking dresses…

( significance of photo: its the view from our venue – and symbolic of looking into the future…)